at war with love....

Well it is coming up on mine and Kelli's one year anniversary. Two more days.

 We got matching tattoos. To most they look like plain old dragonfly's. To us they symbolize a fresh start, a commitment to our love and devotion. They are also a reminder of the vows we took. So that we may never forget what we promised each other almost a year ago. I will be glad to see 2014 in I am hoping it is better then 2013 has been. My dad Just got out of the hospital in England. He has been very sick.The substandard care he received is standard in England according to what my mother saw and other people in the country. I so wanted to jump on a plan fly to England and ask them all if they are daft cows!!! Now that my dad is back on the narrow boat that they call home he is on the mend. Mom of course is taking great care of him and finally getting

to take care of he self again. Below is a picture of my parents when they were in the states for the wedding.


     This first year of marriage has been tough for Kelli and I. Our time apart proved to both of us that we belong with each other. It was a hard lesson to learn and I lost a very good friend. But some times the story has a twist in the plot or they kill off your favorite charter. You keep going you keep reading the story because your not at the end yet. Kelli and I still have many pages of out story to write. Right now we are hunkering down trying to save money to move to Eugene next October. She is doing great at her internship.  They have hired her on a permanent basis. We were hoping that once she is provided with insurance it could mean  job change for me. That might not be the case. Their policy on insurance is estimated by the hours you work so until we figure it out I am staying put in my current job.

                        As a stress reviler I still make jewelry and other things to help fuel and nurture the creative side of me that feels like it is slowly being smothered to death. I have been making Goddess "rosaries" working with a lot more real stone too. I find listening to music and creating some how feeds my soul. I wish so much so that I could make my living doing what I love to do.... Below are some of my new pieces.

     These are just a few of the many pieces I have on sale at etsy.com tripplemoondesigns If you are interested I also do custom orders and have cheap shipping costs to other countries.

I shed my skin and put my bones into everything I do

It is easy to find some one to love but the hard part is finding some one to love you back. I think this is a very true statement. The falling in love is one of the best parts or at least I think it is. The learning something new each day, can't wait to hear your voice, and feel your touch newness of it all. From the moment I met Kelli I knew she was where I wanted to be. Was it love or lust that grew into love? I still miss her smile and laugh. We have gotten to a place where we can text with out an argument ensuing. Then there is Juan.... I was not looking for him I had just left my wife and was going through a divorce. He just was there with his sweetness and flowers and home cooked meals. SO I said fuck it picked up my battered and torn heart and followed him where ever he chose to lead. Don't get me wrong I still have my days where I miss Kelli like crazy but I have been writing her a letter every day trying to express my emotions. I tried to fight for us but there was no going back what was done is done. She is with some one and now so am I. I have learned from my recent

Divorce a few lessons. You can out things on others time tables either it works or it does not and that is okay. 

We can fuck and make love but I will always  a piece of my self just for me.... It is called my soul. I will be giving and kind open to love but my soul that stays mine... My secret place where no one can hurt me. Just because you love some one does not mean you can be with them. This is a hard lesson to learn. But my mother was right love does not always conquer all. The other day it was like this weird switch went off in my head and I stopped hurting so bad. I still have my days but at least I am no longer crying my self to sleep. 

So Juan and I are living together yes I have heard every U haul joke already . We have made agreements and stuck to them so far. We don't go to bed angry, who ever gets home first makes dinner, he handles the money and I do the big cleaning the rest we split. It varies from day to day who does what but we try to support the other in any way we can.

I finally allowed him to meet my Portland family. It went good the kids liked him a lot.I am currently writing this from the PSU 24 hour computer lab while he studies... Like I said we support each other in any way we can. 

  

Starting the new year off right

Pants and Kelli looking super thrilled. 

My hair looks GREAT!!!

Kelli making the o face at apple bee's 

Pants being her charming self. 

Not it

Secret photo time. 

New piece 

A piece that just sold. 

We deiced that we were going to have a nice quiet evening at home. Perhaps a few drinks and then off to bed. At that was how it started..... First there was two... then there was three. As pants sat silently on the couch reading and Kelli and I were in the room watching TV I realized it was really here. 2013. Hopefully the year that we start our family, get better job, my jewelry starts selling more. There is so much promise the year is fresh and UN tainted. I did not want to move or think.... I just wanted to freeze frame it. So fresh and new. Then I cam back down to earth and deiced I was hungry. After much debate and some account checking we decide on our go to place for dinner. Apple Bee's. How can you you beat an appetizer and two steaks with mashed taters and veggies for twenty bucks plus tax..???  (you can't) So we all dressed to be seen in the out side world... IE put on hats and coats and piled into raven and we were off on our first family adventure of 2013. I like to call our outings adventures cause with us you never know what will happen. Apple bees was fairly slow. Every one had moved on with there evenings by the time we got there. We ordered our usual and sat talking, laughing and having fun family time until our orders arrived. We ate laughed  some more and hand a brilliant time. it was the best way to bring in the new year... The next day the store where I sell my jewelry called and said they had sold a bunch and need more pieces ASAP. So far 2013 is going great!!