Late night thoughts

I ran across pictures of my old best friend that I no longer speak too. He is now on T and living his life authentically as Aaron. It was difficult to see the pictures and be reminded of how close we used to be. The friend ship ended suddenly and not by my choice. It saddens me that we are no longer in each others life. We have both changed so much in our time apart. I am trying to live my life more authentically and be honest with my self at times I find it challenging every day. I feel trapped in a job that I no longer find fulling. and some times it is a challenge to just get up and go. I long to be in Eugene around my Family down there living a more authentic and spiritually grounded life. I have not been practicing wicca for a few years now. I find that it is a void I need to fill. I need to feel connected to the earth and the world again.I Need to feel human connection beyond my marriage.we are doing better then ever before as a couple Kelli starts her internship tomorrow. I am so proud of the goals she has set and accomplished.I long to be back in school I feel as if my brain is turning to mush just sitting in my skull. I am still on light duty due to a work injury and I am ready to be done with it. All in all life is going along well I just feel that something is lacking....